Clingy bubba and birthday party

My last shift at work and I'm off late (again) thankfully I drove in but still didn't arrive home until 2.30am. All the time in my mind I'm playing out how tomorrow will go with Iris's 1st party looming, I've been looking forward to it for ages and want it to be perfect. 

I get home and find my little girl and husband asleep peacefully in bed. Then it dawns on me....where am I going to sleep?! She is in my spot in a star shape again, and all I can dream about is uninterrupted sleep! 

Alan wakes up and I am like 'where am I sleeping?' and he looks at me like I'm Mental, in here?! 

Er in the co sleeper cot?,cos that's what's left?! If I so much as lay a piece of skin on that co sleeper it creaks like it's going to collapse. Iris bounces and rolls about on it all day, not a sound heard. 

I get into bed finally just before 3, Iris wakes, I feed her and then she is on and off the boob, but I'm too tired. She did allow me to sleep until 6.30 when she randomly sits up and starts babbling. Daddy took her down stairs. I slept until 9.30, then it was all systems go. 

I felt like a zombie as it's not just a lack of sleep from three days of work it's exhaustion from still being a mum, concentrating all day at work, driving for hours and worrying about everything! 

I'm running round Packing toys, drinks, outfits ready, phone calls to parents and then we are off to the school hall. My sister kindly organized her school hall for the party (she is a teacher) and helped with food, as I logistically couldn't figure out how I was going to do it all. 

With decorations up the hall looked good and people arrived on time. A talented friend of mine made Iris's cake in the theme of 'in the night garden', it's actually amazing! I will post pictures below and it tastes great too. 

The party went well, Iris had 6 little friends come, 3 cousins and my Bestie's little girl too. Iris was very cranky however and I can only put that down to me being at work. She cried and whined and followed me round and wanting Breast feeding a lot.  In the past 3 days,  I've hardly seen her as I have been at home ten hours before going to work again and that includes time to sleep! 

I think this does effect her and she looks for me to pick her up all the time. There is nothing but guilt when I see her little face sad because mummy is going again but I have to work to pay the bills. 

Iris party was over in a flash I think she had a lovely time despite tears and then it's back home to normal routines until the big day on Wednesday.